I am a mess. You know that. You know my innermost being. You know the parts of me that no one else knows. You see every hidden corner of my heart. You hear every restless thought of my mind. You know me, so you know . . . I am a complete mess.
Father, I confess to you that I have become so distracted with the things in life that have no eternal value that I have discounted those things that matter most. I have poured my time and energy into lesser things and given you leftovers. My thoughts have dwelled on the things of earth instead of seeking You. My heart has enthroned those things – my heroes, my friends, my time for recreation. Though I never intended to do it, I have put them all above You. I’ve made you second . . . or worse.
I have held back my best from you – my best passions; my best words; my best affections; the best parts of me. You created those parts of me for You, but I have used them to chase my own ambitions and my own whims..
Lord, my hands are dirty. My eyes are glazed. My heart is cold. I have put distance between us . . . but I want to be close to You again.
Have mercy on me, O God, according to Your unfailing love; according to Your great compassion. Blot out my transgressions. Wash away my iniquity. Cleanse me from my sin. Clean my hands. Warm my heart. Knock the scales off of my eyes and help me to see!
I need You, Father. Maybe I had forgotten how much. I’ve never forgotten You; never purposefully forsaken You; but I have neglected You and what You want for me. Thank You that you have never moved. Thank You that Your plans for me have never changed. Thank You for Your patience and compassion and great love for me.
Cleanse my hands. Cleanse my lips. Restore to me the joy of your salvation, and grant me a willing spirit to sustain me. And Thank You, Father, for mercy that never fails.